Friday, June 19, 2009

Yes.

Why am I standing in your shadow, wondering whether or not I'm able to do it right this time. I never asked for your permission, so why am I so desperately looking for it?

Forget all the things I said before. Clearly it wasn't the truth. And obviously you don't care enough to find out what really is. So I'm walking away from you. And all of your plans, and all of your preconcieved notions and thoughts of me.

I'm walking away from you and the box your trying to put me in.

I'm stronger than the boundries you put me in. I'm bolder.

And I won't walk behind you anymore...trying to make sure you stay as comfortable as possible.

I'm strong enough to walk past you now.

I don't care what you think anymore, because I realize you loved me only for your own convenience.

For your ability to conquer what you see in me.

The spark in me that makes me unattainable.

Because of my frailty and my inability to see passed my own flaws, my immaturity about my own strength...you thought you'd come in and give me advice. Nuture me...and mold me into what you think your own self-esteem can handle.

But I've learned quickly your love for me was for your own benefit.

And it was never really about my best interest, but your own.

A selfish love I innocently trusted in.

But I know now who you are, and more importantly who you aren't.

So I'm walking away from you...sometimes physically...but mostly emotionally. There are parts of me you'll never know. And tho I used to be bothered by that truth, I see now that that same fact frees me from your grasp.

Free enough to walk away...from you.

-Me.

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